...ILY thy kingdom camia! hahah. lol.

Yhey. I just finished English. My ending for In a Grove was okay-okay but my Zen reflections are kinda sucky. I just have to do STR tomorrow morning then study for Chem long test.

Super saya ko kanina kasi we had a Camia-dormers-plus-Sir-Mardan-dinner na three persons lang naman yata kumain. Grabe. Super nakakamiss ang Camia (corny pa rin). I wish matuloy ung Camia Christmas party next Friday para naman maka-party din ako kasi exchange gift lang meron sa Potassium. *cross fingers* Rar. Super na-miss ko talaga Camia. Wah, sana second year na lang muna uli. lol. Pero seriously, kahit walang masyadong nangyari and kahit almost one third lang ng Camia andun, masaya na siya for me kasi I feel the Camia-thing na naman. We were supposed to play Mafia pero well, hindi naman natuloy kasi hindi lahat nagclo-close ng eyes (as usual). Hahah. Frustration yata ni Sir Mardan na makalaro kami ng matinong Mafia.

Pero un. Nakakamiss talaga. ILY Camia2010! lol.

...when every single day is loaded with a lot of (long) tests

Rar. So many requirements loaded in less than two weeks. I feel a bit down and tired. So I grabbed the Bible, prayed for some help, and opened it. And here's the very first thing I saw...

__________________________
A Prayer for Help

From the depths of my despair
I call to you, Lord.
Hear my cry, O Lord;
listen to my call for help!
If you keep a record of our sins,
who could escape being condemned?
But you forgive us,
so that we should stand in awe of you.

I wait eagerly for the Lord's hel,
and in his word I trust.
I wait for the Lord
more eagerly than watchmen
wait for the dawn--
than watchmen wait for the dawn.

Israel, trust in the Lord,
because his love is constant
and he is always willing to save.
He will save his people Israel
from all their sins.

-Psalms 130
__________________________

Now I feel better.

Wala lang. Just felt something that made me want to write this out.

...h.e.l.l...w.e.e.k.

Two weeks before Christmas vacation, one week before perio --> aka HELL WEEK!

Tomorrow pa lang, super dami ng requirements. And for once, I shall try being serious, kahit for two weeks lang.

Lol. Sana naman magwork-out ung magiging serious ko, though I doubt na I'd be able to totally get rid of being a procrastinator kahit for two weeks lang. Duh. Cramming? It's a vital part of my life. Hahah. Anyway. Uh, so I really need to get serious. Pss. I just hope this works. :D

Oh, 17 days na lang, Christmas na! Yhey!

...qwertyuiop asdfghjkl zxcvbnm

Super daming requirements for tomorrow. Maglalabas lang ng stress for a while. lol.

*start*

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*end*

Yhey. Rar. Mag-start na nga ako.

Uh, by the way, random thought, is sir still checking blogs? Wala lang. lol. :D

...when you can live forever, what do you live for.

lol.

Two of my cousins planned on watching Twilight a long time ago. What can I do but agree? Besides, it's one chance to leave the house before doing any homework.

I think we were in Trinoma around 11:30am, bought tickets, then ate lunch at BK while waiting for time to pass. We bought Krispy Kreme before entering the cinema. Oh, and some Chupa Chups too. Hahah.

I'm not making comments on the movie. lol.

...yeah

Ahh, fair. Well, in my opinion, this year's fair is better than the last. Despite having a uh, some 'weird' things like a flag cem and ribbon-cutting, and having to wear an ID, well, at least it had some booths that are actually okay.

Nag-darts kami nina LC, Hanna and Roger after eating lunch. Ang saya. I think naka-two-out-of-five ako. Hahah. I'm so bad at aiming. Pero ang galing ni LC, naka-four-out-of-five yata siya. Ah basta. Ang saya.

Then nag-bike kami. Well, actually, sila lang. Kasi, beginner pa lang ako. Pero at least naka-pedal na ako kahit one step lang. Hahah. Pero kasi, it's my first time talaga na mag-bike ng two wheels na 'mag-isa'. So super happy ako. Hahah. Yhey!

Tapos, super fun din ng inflatables. Although medyo mainit pa noon, kasi like siguro mga 1:30 un, masaya pa rin. Super saya pag pabababa na slide. Hahah.

After namin pawisan, nanuod na lang kami sa SHB ng PS. Ang hardcore ni Kirby - cute but terrible!

Then nag-bike na naman sila, peo I stayed behind na kasi super sakit na ng toes ko. Feeling ko, parang may blisters ung foot ko nung time na un. Hayy, thank you na lang and I was wrong. So un, while waiting, sumama na lang ako kina Roger and JohnJohn sa shift nila. Gumawa kami ng water balloons.

Nung natapos na sila magbike, ewan ko kung paano, pero, bigla kaming nag-watergun fight. Super nagpabasa na ako kasi super init. Nag-wet look kami ni LC . Hahah. Ang saya!

Oh, tapos may na-catch pala si LC na fish. Wala lang.

Tapos un, wala lang. Bye bye na. I wasn't able to go sa battle of the bands kasi I went home mga 6:00 pm na. Pero anyways, ang saya pa rin today.

...dun.dun.dun.dun.

Super corny ng mga tao kanina (me included). Parang naka-high or something. Siguro it's the fair fever. Basta, seryoso, nakakabobo. Pero ang saya. Hahah.

Asar nga lang. May physics lab report pa na due tomorrow. Halfway done na rin naman ako. Yhey! Oh well, kelangan ko pang tapusin.

Anyway, nanakaw ko somewhere:

___*___*___

* your last dream was about...
-uh, i don't really remember.

* the song you are LSS-ing now is...
-this is me... hahah! kadiri.. si roger kasi.. :D

* is the 99th contact in your phone a relative or a friend of yours?
-uh, none of the above. long lost number ko un eh. lol.

* when you hear the word 'Monday', what comes to your mind?
-another five days of torture and fun(??) ahead

*how many songs (if any) are in your phone?
-117

*would you rather have fame and fortune than family and friends?
-f&f...

*are you an open or a closed book?
-closed.

*how old are you by the end of year 2010?
-17

*you'd rather be sick in bed than...
-have a test in Physics, Chem, Math, Bio, etc... hahah..

*you are a frustrated...
-artist, writer, whatever.

*the type of people you hate most...
-are uber-backstabbers, uber-stalkers, uber-'feeling close' and the like...

*any plans for the weekend?
-bonding with cousins (a.k.a watch twilight).. hahah..

*how many messages are in your phone inbox?
-313.. hahah.. di na ako nagdedelete.

*the last person to give you a stuffed bear is...
-bear? my grade school friend yata

*your last kiss is...
-ewan. ung bear ko yata.

*the last movie you watched was...
-casanova.. too socsci-esh -> inquisition and stuff.

*favorite Disney song
-a whole new world (alladin), etc...

*you were stranded in an island with your worst enemy. what would you do?
-find some food and potable water

*what if it was your ultimate crush who's stranded with you?
-still find some food and water.. duh.

*do you daydream?
-often

*right at this moment, you...
-want to sleep!

___*___*___

...if only Ctrl+Z works everytime

...then I wouldn't have to worry about anything since things would easily be undone.

But yeah, of course it won't work in real life.We can never go back to the past. Period.

Life's too short to worry about grades. But it's long enough to make us realize that the very same grades we oftentimes hate will actually determine the chances of survival in the near future. In my opinion, that is. Basta, ang hirap i-explain.

There are some things in life you just can't explain. They just - "poof!" - happen.

And it's already 28 days before Christmas!

...yeah

Chem long test was H.A.R.D. As in, kahit na nag-aral na ako and nag-answer ng mga exercises na binigay ni Sir, I have this feeling na mababa pa rin score ko. Ugh, never mind Chem. Math long test naman tomorrow.

I'm having hiccups. Wala lang. Just being random.

Sobrang saya nung after class. Pero top secret siya kasi, well, uh, basta. lol.

Oh, tapos nung Bio, I don't know. Pero have you ever thought na man can walk, run, hop, crawl, swim BUT CAN'T FLY. I mean, seriously, diba? Wala lang.

Oh, and yehey! Hindi ako masyadong napahiya nung PE kasi nag-time na nung turn ko na mag-bat. So, yhey!

I'm currently searching for pictures for the Japanese thingie sa English. Ang cool ng pictures ng isang blog, as in pictures of geishas talaga lahat. And their kimonos are so pretty. Wala lang. :D

...happy over drive

As far as I can remember, the 1st Bio long test for this quarter is the highest Bio long test I ever had so far in my Pisay stay and I'm just so so so happy! To be honest, that was really the first time I ever read the full chapter of the book in preparation for a test, and I have to say, the effort was paid off.

Water balloon fight nung homeroom. "Civilized" version, so it wasn't the funnest thing. Corny nga eh. I didn't even get wet.

Nakakabobo ung ginawa namin while discussing for our Fil groupwork. Pero ang saya.

Tomorrow's Chem long test. Gah!

Life's too short to just worry about grades... :D

...when G = 6.673 x 10^-11 Nm^2/kg^2

Fiftieth post ko 'to.. Wala lang.. lol.

Before studying para sa Chem long test, I shall rant things about sa mga nangyari kanina. First, Chem prob set. Sobrang hirap. Sobrang pamatay. Sobrang nakakasira ng ulo. Tapos, right after, may Physics long test naman. Well, compared sa Chem, sobrang dali na ng Physics kahit may kahirapan pa rin. Ganun talaga kahirap ung Chem. Right minus wrong pa rin ung Physics. Nakakainis pa rin un. Pero hindi siguro gaano nahirapan ung iba kasi may notes part ung answer sheet nila. Ako, well, di ko kasi narinig na ipinass na nila ung paper, so hindi ko napasa. So nag-memorize ako ng maraming constants and equations while ung iba, tingin-tingin lang sa paper. So hindi ako magtataka kung medyo mababa makukuha ko compared sa majority kasi baka may mali akong nagamit na equation or constant. Ahh, bahala na nga. What's done is done.

So un nga. Natatakot tuloy ako sa Chem. Long test na bukas. 'Di ko pa rin gets ng sobra ung stereoisomerism. Nakakalito pala, tapos ung time pressure pa. Pshh. Oh well. What shall be done will be done.

EDIT: Yhey! Na-move ung Chem long test sa Tuesday..!

...wishlist

(Stolen from John-john)...

If I'm not mistaken, 37 days na lang before Christmas! And just in case Santa Claus decided to blog-hop and come across mine, I want him to know my Christmas wishlist...

-my OWN car (e.g. 2009 Ford Mustang GT, 2009 Porsche 911 Carrera)
-my OWN condo unit
-a tenth of the world's money
-visit every single country in earth and own a tenth of it
-lifetime supply of chocolates(!!)

...Okay, so I'm being so materialistic... But here's my real wishlist:
-survive 3rd year (and hopefully, 4th year) in Pisay
-connect with my family more
-no more cramming(?!)
-my own bible
-be worry-free with my friends
-chocolates (I still want 'em)
-the many books I wanna have and read
-an ultra cute stufftoy
-enjoy life more
-a house on top of a cliff near the sea
-better judgment skills
-European or Caribbean cruise
-travel in space
-have a cute pet dog (no specific breed in mind)
-be closer to God!
-and a whole lot more...

Ahh, I should really be content with what I have right now. But, uh, sometimes, these 'wishes' are what drives us into doing things in the best way we can. I mean, if there's a finish line, then you have to work your way into reaching it. Uh, never mind me when I'm blabbing. It's the time when I talk twice as nonsense as compared to my 'normal' nonsense talks.

I still have some sleep hours to catch. I'm cramming everything tomorrow again.

...mindless

Headache + 76 items of Physics + other requirements = MAJOR headache!

...i really really wish i could fly

...and set free from all the worries and troubles I have in this world.

In your childhood, have you ever thought of how it is to fly? The cool wind rushing beneath your wings, the whiteness of clouds all around you, the feeling of liberty, the notion of freedom. And the sky truly is the limit. Would it be great to feel the way birds do, just soaring and gliding like there's nothing else in the world to worry about. Diba ang sarap ng feeling?

Siguro ganun na lang ung feeling ko ngayon, parang gumaan ung feeling ko despite the stress build-up. Ewan ko, pero parang slowly, things are turning back to uh, 'normal'. Tapos, parang ang saya kasi well, I don't know.

As expected, bumaba 2nd quarter grade ko, pero 0.02 lang naman. But still, I have to do better this quarter talaga.

Ang weird. Kasi diba if you open MS Word, may lalabas na Office Assistant like si Clippit, ung paperclip. Anyway, inisip ko na mag-isip ng storyline for Fil. I don't usually mind the 'tips' from Clippit, pero kanina, kakaiba ung tip niya. "Things that go away by themselves go back by themselves." Woah. Something to ponder with.

Ang saya kasi na-cram ko ung Chem kanina. Tapos 'di ako natawag sa Bio. Tapos natapos ko ung ComSci thanks to *ehem*Nixxx*ehem*. Tapos may cool na nangyari nung homeroom (heheh). Tapos eye-opener ung nangyari kaninang after dismissal. Tapos inikot namin ung school in search for an acacia tree. :D

...yuk.emo.

A random mix of emotions - that's how I feel. Ah, weird. The wonders of this world seem to be revealing itself to me, and I think I'm caught stranded between my thoughts. Thoughts which may have long been in my head but never had the chance present itself to me, well at least until now.

...overly useless and random

Ang saya today! Wala lang. Ang saya lang.

Basta, ang weird. Wala lang talaga. I'm like so ewan. Siguro talagang na-high lang ako a while ago. Ang weird talaga.

Ang fun ng PBP kanina. Ang fun na panoorin ung mga water rockets at mga nababasang mga tao. Pero last day of testing na yata tomorrow and 'di pa kami tapos. Hayy.

Tapos a while ago lang after dismissal, ewan. Ang fun at nakakatuwa. Ang saya! Hahah.

Christmas Countdown:
I think it's 51 days before Christmas
and I seriously can't wait!

...i hope this will work

I can barely think of anything good for the monologue tomorrow. I was actually thinking of translating my English monologue into Filipino, but I don't think I can embarrass myself again with all the cheesy lovey-dovey lines. Bleh!

Haaahh! I don't feel like doing anything. But we have resolved to do better this quarter. As in seriously, I need to do better this time. Although I don't have failing grades, my general average is pretty low, 1.67 something if I remember correctly. Psshh.

So, I hope within 10 minutes, I'd be able to come up with something good for my Fil.

EDIT: 1.69 pala grade ko. :D

...i'll only stop loving you when the earth goes flat

Ang cheesy-sounding ng title ko. Sino kaya love ko? Hmm. Well, duh. Syempre si Lord. Pinagaling niya pa ung right ankle ko.

Yhey! Medyo nawawala na ung sakit sa twisted ankle ko. Actually kagabi, sobrang gusto kong sumigaw everytime na gagalaw ung foot ko sa bed kasi sobrang sakit talaga. Pero paggising ko, yhey! Medyo nawala na. Nag-work ung prayers ko. Thank you Lord! Seryoso, parang na-reduce ng more than twice ung sakit. Na-bebend ko na rin siya ng kaunti unike yesterday na sobrang kinakagat ung lips ko para lang di sumigaw. So thank you talaga Lord!

And inannounce na na until 12 noon lang kami ngayon. Yhey uli! Makaka-uwi ako sa province ng hindi super late. Feeling ko, kung mga 1pm kami makakaalis dito, baka around 5-6 pm na kami makakarating. Asar, ang layo. Pero, oh well.

...i'm so clumsy

I feel oh-so happy now. Siguro na-badtrip lang ako kasi super dumi ng rubber shoes ko tapos medyo pagod rin ako and walang nangyayaring maganda/masaya sa mundo kaya ako na-emo. Pero anyway, I'm happy happy happy now kahit medyo wala pa ring nagbabago.

Nakakainis lang kasi ung Physics! Akala ko late na ako kaya tumakbo ako from dorm to ASTB. Pero may mga tao, kaya iniwasan ko. Pero sa sobrang pagmamadali ko, medyo na-out of balance ako. Medyo lang kasi na-control ko pa rin, pero 'click!' Nag-twist ung right ankle ko pero tumakbo pa rin kasi 12:12 na yata noon. Feeling ko, ilan beses ako nakasabi ng sh** habang umaakyat. Buti na lang, walang ibang tao. Tapos, pagdating ko nang 3rd floor -- kainis! Asa corridor lang sila. Wala pa pala. Saka ko lang talga na-feel ung sakit. Grabe. As in, gusto ko nang umiyak noon. Kasi nabigla ko pang na-bend kaya mas lalong sumakit.

Tapos, wala lang. Abnormal ako maglakad. Parang abnormal na penguin or parang lasing. Ewan. Pero medyo na-cocontrol ko pa naman. Not like noong last year. Grabe! Kasi ung art na bbq sticks. Dala ko tapos di ko nakita ung tatapakan ko kaya nahulog ako sa stairs ng dorm. Three or four steps lang naman. HIndi siguro dapat masakit un kung hindi lang ung right ankle ko uli ung nauna. Sobrang naiiyak na talaga ako noon, pero tinawa ko na lang kasi well, clumsiness ko lang naman un eh. So un, ang labo nga eh. Kasi naalala ko pa, nakipag-race pa ako kina Elysse and Josh papuntang caf after. Syempre, naunahan nila ako kahit 'tumatakbo' na ako. Hahah. So un. Natatawa tuloy ako. Ang weird. I think, mga 2 days ako na hindi nakapaglakad ng matino.

Pero, medyo okay na rin ung paa ko. Masakit lang siya ng kaunti kapag masyado ko iniikot-ikot. Pero nakakapaglakad na ako ng straight. Siguro nasanay na ako dati. Hahah. Oh well.

...rain a bit harder, please

(A random emo-ish post)

I don't feel like going to school tomorrow. In fact, I don't feel like my usual self today. Trying to fake everything with a smile, just as a concealer hides everything unwanted to be seen. I feel so moody these past few days, though most people fail to recognize it. I guess I'm a good concealer then.

(No, I'm not being 'plastic' when I said I just smile to look like everything's okay when something's really wrong. It's just that I don't want people to see me look down and bother to ask what's with me and I won't give them an answer.)

I feel so low. I feel depressed. I feel so down. I feel frustrated. I feel so bad.

I don't know, I don't feel like being oh-so carefree and laid-back today. I'm not pretty sure if it's even about my grades getting oh-so low for the 2nd quarter. I mean, I'm used to low grades now. Why would I even bother that much. I can't say I'm stressed with school requirements. Compared to the past, this week and the last was quite easy for us. So now, I wonder what's really wrong with me.

I tried sleeping all my thoughts away. But nothing happened. I tried eating chocolates today. But nothing happened. I tried reading the hardcore Bio book for tomorrow. But nothing happened. I tried typing my moodiness away. But nothing happened.

If only life was a bit more easier.

Rain a bit harder, please.

Rain. Rain. Rain.

...retreat memories, day 3

Sunday, October 19, 2008

We woke up the usual time, dressed up the usual clothes, and had the usual day, only there's something different that's happening today - we're already leaving a few hours from now.

Right after breakfast, we started saying goodbye to the place. We took some pictures. After some time, there was a batch prayer thing. And I really really like Mymy and Josh Dizon's performance. It was so beautiful and heart-touching. Then we burned all our bad habits and attitudes and bade them goodbye before attending the Holy Mass. Then the batch pic under the sun. Then it was packing up time. After lunch, we started boarding the bus.

And that's when I felt like crying once again, this time because of the feeling of leaving the place where you spent some happy times with your friends. Despite being there for just about three days and two nights, I feel so attached to the place where I find myself sharing laughter and tears with some of the closest people in my life. Despite the many rules our batch broke, despite the not-so-cozy management, despite being sleepless and having a room where our heater isn't working and doorknobs eternally locked, it feels just so great. When we signed the tarpaulin, it feels like I am part of an event that changed my life forever.

I never had regrets for attending this retreat. I felt closer to God, I understand myself better, and know my friends more. Now I know why they say high school life is the best. It's the time when we start to experience a lot of failures, heartbreaks, losses. But it's also in this time when we start to gain true friends who would never leave you crying in the dark.

As the bus started to move, I was staring at the window wishing that one day, we'd all return to that same place where our realizations in life took place, and where friendships grew stronger than ever.

"...We were strangers starting out on a journey... Now here I stand, unafraid of the future at the beginning with you..."

PS. We found our phone on top of the cabinet. We were thinking of making a last prank call but thanks to our newly repaired conscience, we didn't do it. lol

...retreat memories, day 2

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Our phones rang in intervals, and by 5:15 am, we were all awake, but too lazy to take a bath. By 7:20, we were all ready. We took a little detour in Ralph and Roger's 'manor' as they call it before we went to attend to Mass. Well, their place really looks like a townhouse compared to our 'beach house cottages'.

There were three scheduled talks for the day, although one seems to be more of an activity than a talk. Anyway, the first speaker went in front holding a guitar. I thought it was one of those boring speakers who could make you sleep in a matter of seconds. He first talked about the Prodigal Son, then him being a marijuana addict and dealer before, then he started talking about his real achievements in life. I was really touched by the way he talked about his family, especially his son. I really liked what he said about carrying your child as much as you can 'coz you'd miss it when you won't be able to in time. Then there was his song # 8: "...I don't wanna close my eyes, i don't wanna fall asleep, 'coz I'll miss you Robi, and I don't wanna miss a thing..." Then, the kid whispering to him "...You know what, you're the best dad in the world..." Then everything seemed to be a blur when I realized tears were already rolling down my eyes. Then he sang again, this time a Filipino version of "I Will Be Here" which made my cry even more. Then he asked us to hug our friends and I felt like I was relieved more than ever. After his wonderful song, I dried my tears and saw that the people in front of me were doing the same. Who would have thought these guys know how to cry as well. So yeah. Kuya Obet was the only speaker who really made me cry like that, and I can say he was one of those who really made a great impact on me.

The Amazing Race maybe was suppose to be fun, but to be honest, it was the most boring part that happened this day. Maybe because our group wasn't in the mood to unite so much and all. I can't believe Fadi was the only one who crossed the fire wall while some groups. only had two people left. So maybe it all depends on the group spirit.

We were also given a chance to confess. I'm not sure, but I think it has been a year since my last confession. And I was able to open up more, so I feel happy after.

The third talk in the afternoon was about Love, Sex, and Life. You know, the iKeepLoveReal talks. I thought it was going to be a repeat of what they told us before, it was different and actually more funny than what most of us had expected. Talking about funny, who wouldn't agree that the guy speaker was totally hilarious. I wouldn't be surprised if he becomes a stand-up comedian one day. But mind you, he's a doctor, although I'm not sure what field he specializes in.

We were given the rest of the afternoon for our one-on-one talks with our assigned facilitators. Then we kinda explored the place. Oh, and the InterCom phones were hidden because prank calls reached Fr. Mon's and even the owner's rooms late at midnight. Then we also discovered that there was a souvenir shop near the gate.

When we have nothing else to do, we just stayed in the room and talked and laughed and shared stories.

Then, finally after dinner, one of our most anticipated part of the retreat. We were first given candles. Even outside the Conference Room, while we were waiting for some more people, I felt so joyed being with my friends. As corny as it may get, I still have to say it feels good staring at the beautiful night sky glittering with pretty stars, hiding from paparazzi pics, posing for group and class pics.

We finally entered the room, and it was so dark when only a big candle is lighting the whole room. After everyone had their candles lighted, we got our envelopes and started reading our Palanca letters. I was really surprised to see my envelope with some 12 or so letters when I was really only expecting five. I was so happy. Reading those letters made me so happy.

After that, we had banana cupcakes with chocolate chips on top. And since, it's our last night, we were given an extra hour to spend good time with our dear friends. Of course, we had our own kalukohans. We had so much fun laughing our hearts out and singing at the top of our voices and laughing like we never knew any worries in the world. This was the best night I ever had with my friends and I'm sure everyone of us feels the same.

...i just realized it's already 3rd quarter and i'm still failing

Seriously. I have this feeling that almost all my grades will go down this quarter. As in, it would be a miracle if at least two will remain the same. Right now, I wanna say goodbye to my unos and hello to 2.25s and 2.50s.

And I just wanna rant for being doing really bad in my elocution a while ago in English. I feel like I really really suck. I mean, I memorized it and all. But to be honest, I never knew what right emotions I should be placing there. So I ended up having impromptu actions which, right now, made me think like I was crazy talking in there. Despite staring at those 14 lines of expressive words for three days, I never internalized the piece in a way that seems right. Aagh! I feel so bad! And to think Ma'am Bernal was expecting so much from us since we had so much time to practice. Anyways, it's all over now and I'm just relieved I'm done. No worries for tomorrow. I just hope Ma'am would be considerate enough to give me a 2.00 and I'd be so happy. Yhey! It's Friday once again! This week seem to be so fast. I barely noticed of the time passing. As in seriously. Maybe I got to appreciate more of the things around me this time. Oh well.

Oh, and today's my lil bro's birthday! Happy 11th birthday Joseph Ryan (the Pokemon Master wannabe)!! I love yah despite all the naughtiness and evilness you have! I miss you! :D

...retreat memories, day 1

Friday, October 17, 2008

Five hours away from Metro Manila, I have to wake up as early as 4:30 am to prepare for the long travel ahead of me. Little did I know that there's so much ahead of me more than what I expected. I slept during half of the travel time going to Manila. Whenever I wake up, I tried finishing Memoirs or munch on some snacks I brought along with me. We arrived earlier than expected so we dropped by at Trinoma and ate lunch before they dropped me at Pisay.

And woah! There were already a lot of people at the front lob. I spotted some of my classmates busy placing their pretty Palanca letters in individual envelopes while talking about how fun and boring our sembreak was. It took about half an hour (?) before they announced our bus assignments and boarded the bus. And on my estimate, it took another half an hour before we finally left Pisay. The bus ride was not too loud. Maybe we were either busy talking quietly with our seatmate, taking naps, reading, eating, or watching Don't Mess with the Zohan and Mama Mia. Oh, did I mention that Mama Mia is like the oldies version of High School Musical, although I think it's better than the kiddies craze nowadays. And Zohan was funny.

If I remember correctly, we arrived at Angel's Hills at around 3:30 pm. And the place is really pretty. It reminds me of my childhood when we go to Baguio every summer vacation. Anyway, since we were lagging off with our schedule, we were hurriedly led to the Conference Room for the Orientation and Room Assigning. And while the management was speaking of the House Rules, we were "noisy and not listening" to him so he just walked out. Talking about oversensitivity. Well actually, we were listening. If we weren't, then how would we make all those side comments on what he was talking about. Umbrella. And dude, haven't you realized that despite being tagged as the 'Iskolar ng Bayan', we are all kids teens getting excited and all. Uh, never mind. So we were just assigned with our room. I'm with LC, Hanna, and Oona -- Room 19A. We were given an hour or so for fixing our stuffs and roaming around the grounds.

Then there was a talk at around 6 pm. I thought it was one of those walkout-dudes again who's going to talk about not being good boys and girls inside their grounds. So I was quite relieved when I saw Fr. Mon standing with microphone. And he taught us this Latin song. I think it was Ho Bosigno di Te. I'm not pretty sure with the title, but anyway. It was fun!

Then we had dinner. Then we had a batch unity thing. Gosh. The human bingo. Some people actually it too seriously. But some, (like me!) did it just for fun! Oh, and I almost forgot to mention Mark Doronila's love letter Palanca letter for Estelle. Then there was a huge boardgame with a huge fragile(?) dice! The Surpanakha remake scene. The gummy snakes. The dance numbers (especially Mam Docto's and Sir Chuckie's). And Franco. It was quite disturbing, but totally fun!

Then we set our alarms at 5 am. And just when we where about to sleep, we received a call from Ralph, then from Roger, then from a random number, then from someone not talking, then from another one. Finally, they put as to rest.

...happy to be back(?)

Grabe. Super tagal ko na pala di nakapag-post. Kakatamad eh. Anyway. Since requirement na yata 'tong blog namin for like forever in ComSci 3, I have no other choice but post and post..

Anyway, hah. Wala ako masabi ngayon. Hmm, well I'm enjoying myself with Kenny Roger's muffins. Ang weird. Throughout all my life eating there, ngayon ko lang nalaman na may muffin pala sila na instead of corn ang toppings, parang mini-Oreo ung nasa taas. Wala lang. Para kasing weird. Pero anyway, masarap din siya. Or siguro, kasi un lang ung lunch ko at super gutom na ako kaya ako nasarapan. Pero, oh well. Never mind.

Christmas Countdown:
It's 64 days before Christmas!
Hooray, presents!

...my not-so-boring not-so-fun sembreak

Isolation. That's how I felt when our internet was broke for a whole week. And with no classes, I have nothing else to do but stare at the ceiling and daydream. For six days, I only had 5 things in mind - sleep, eat, read, watch, sleep. Here's what I did while waiting for the Retreat.

Saturday - I overslept and found myself alone in the house. They all left for the mall and left me behind, thinking I need to get more sleep and rest. I scavenged for some food in the cabinet, opened my laptop and found out that the internet's not working. I ended up grabbing Memoirs of a Geisha and started reading it.

Sunday - My college cousins are having their sembreak (as in the real 3 week kind of sembreak) so we hitched a ride with my tito and tita who went to Clark to shop for something. Afterwards, we went home not in Metro Manila but in the province. Home, sweet home. It's been 5 months since the last time I've been in Dagupan. I never knew my little brother brought 2 cute guinea pigs who now have a cuter baby. And boya are they fat! What I also missed was my favorite teddy bear I had 15 years now. Oh, how I hugged him so tight!

Monday - As much as I really really really REALLY want to, I wasn't able to go to the Camia reunion since I'm 5 hours away from Trinoma. Aww, I really feel so bad. I miss them so much but feel helpless knowing not how to commute from Dagupan to Manila. Instead, I continue reading Memoirs.

Tuesday - I originally planned to do STR today and realized that I left some of the papers back at the dorm. So I had a hard time re-planning our research all over again. I hate my too-forgetful brain!

Wednesday - Continue cramming STR. I managed to ask my lil bro to go with me and find a nearby internet cafe to submit it. Of course he agreed. He was able to play and surf the net as well. But we didn't stay to long. You know how internet cafes are. A lot of guys shouting while playong DotA and stuff. I got irritated at a boy sitting near my brother who told a hundred words of profanities and curses.

Thursday - There's nothing left to do. I continued reading Memoirs. Late at night, I started packing my stuff for tomorrow. We'd be leaving early to catch up the 12 noon assemby time.

Friday, Saturday, Sunday - That's a whole new different story.

Christmas Countdown:
It's 67 days before Christmas!
'Tis the season to be jolly!

...my pre-physics long test rants

Six more questions on my Physics homework and I'm done! And now I'm here to rant on our upcoming Physics long test.

Why do they have to make such a fuss if we make guesses on our Physics long test. They're lessening our chance to have better grades, and in fact makes our lives even worse. I'd rather get a zero than a negative on my paper. What if we were not guessing, what if we really think that what we wrote is the right answer, and we made a mistake? I mean, we have to admit, not all of us are Physics geniuses here. They're making Physics harder and harder as if they haven't seen us suffer getting low, low grades last quarter. And how are we suppose to learn from our mistakes when we are too afraid to make one? What if life was designed to be that way? Then I bet by now, our life expectancy would have reached 30 since everyone would have committed suicide. I can't seem to find a valid point on why they have to give us a right-minus-wrong test. It's just, you know, crap. So yeah, I hate Physics right now.

And before I end up ranting even longer, I'd stop here and make up my mind on whether I should study for ComSci or not. As for Physics, it's just plain crap.

Christmas Countdown:
It's 76 days before Christmas!
I hope everything goes well for me soon.

...it's one crazy day for me

Yhep. This day is 99% happy happy happy! The 1% goes to Physics homework, Physics long test (which is another right minus wrong test) and ComSci long test. But I doubt that I'd be studying for both and start my homework tonight.

I finished my part for the Health baby book. We successfully and luckily finished our group poem for Fil and I think I'm okay with my two crappy indiv poems. So all in all, I'm fine.

And I think I've gone a bit too crazy a while ago. Well, who could blame me? I really am crazy and shallow. Anyway. Here's some of what happened today.
-It's Kit's and Oona's birthday celebration. K and Mg people had food. There's pizza and donuts and soda. Happy Birthday guys!
-Courtney was so funny when she said "niwasak-wasak nila ung sembreak natin". Peace, Courtney!
-Our Fil group had a crazy idea that whenever we'd be lacking a syllable in a line, we'd just add "Yeah!" If 2 syllables are missing, we'd add "Oh yeah!"
-We were thinking of burning the Physics unit. lol
-When Goma and I were thinking for our Chinese board games, we had some weird funny ideas. Like a snakes-and-ladders game, only, the ladders would be the Great Wall of China or something. And I said, why not Chinese Checkers. Crap. I'm being stupid.
-Arvin and Jed were really funny. Since Arvin had been giving the reason of having a door as his only house in covering up for his unfinished Health, Jed said that he could cut that door -- "o diba, wood carvings, astig." And Arvin had been too resourceful that he used my explanations for his. Like example, my sentence was "Milk is rich in nutrients, and vitamins and minerals which the baby needs for comfort." His would be "Clothes are rich in fiber and cotton which the baby needs for comfort." Very creative. And too resourceful.
-We were thinking of adding a little twist at the end of a poem. As in, we'd make it like a chain letter or something of the sort. Something like "ipasa mo sa sampung kaibigan, kundi ika'y mumultuhin ko." But we weren't able to pursue with that. Oh well. Actually, ours isn't horror. It's more of a comedy with a tinge of action.

So yeah. I had a great time today. But ahww. I'm too sleepy at the moment. Might as well doze off to sleep.

...too early in morning

I just had a weird but cool (but still really weird) dream a few minutes ago. Maybe listening to a single song again and again(which was, I have to say, accidentally set on repeat mode until I drowsed off) have some effects on my brain. And despite me wanting to go back to sleep badly, the dream just bugs my mind so much I can't even stand lie still in my bed for a minute. So I decided to work on my English long test an hour earlier than what I had planned.
(I'm trying to be productive here.)

It's actually the first time I read the questions, and I realized this are essay questions, as in the REAL ones. And by real, I mean the essay that needs your brain to really think of your opinion hard and defend it and all, and not just those that requires elaborate brief and concise explanations on an already defined topic. So yeah, I'm in trouble. I don't think I can do something good today while my brain is still wandering of to think of what dream I just had.

And as a proof to what I had just said, here's my answer to number 8. (Write a poem about a topic related to poverty.):

COINS

Cling, cling, cling.
Coins clinging and a-clashing,
Coins that shake in a cup
For a little child's living.
In filthy rags,
In sullied shoes,
Children walk the muddy streets
In search of coins they could use.
Running down in alleys,
Scampering like mice
Do boys and girls beg for coins
For everything now has a price.
Aching grinding stomachs,
Dehydrated mouths
Drives the innocence out of a child
In pursuit of coins from north to south.
Small hopes and simple dreams
Shattered and have gone astray
In a shanty where they count the coins
That big people had thrown away.
Cling, cling, cling.
Coins clinging and a-clashing,
Coins that shake in a cup
For a little child's living.

So yeah. It's just plain crap that went inside my head. But I have no other choice but to submit this along with two more answers which I haven't even started on.

Christmas Countdown:
It's 77 days before Christmas!
I wonder what gifts I'd be receiving. :D

...i have no other titles in mind

YEHEY!

Perio exams are finally over! It's just finish-your-requirements-time for tomorrow and on Friday, and a whole week of no-school-no-classes next week! Finally, a time to loosen up and relax.

But really, I personally don't like the idea of cutting our sembreak into three pieces. Damn that fire.

*Currently scheduling my cramming time for my English long test. Yhep, professional crammers sometimes make schedules too.*

Christmas Countdown:
It's 78 days before Christmas!
Jingle bells! Jingle bells!

...hah

Wow. Six days without classes. Now that's fun.

Today's the first day of perio. Noooo!!

Christmas Countdown:
It's 80 days before Christmas!
It's oh-so near.

...flames

Seven hours ago, I felt what seem to me the scariest thing that ever happened in Pisay. Nope, I haven't seen a ghost or something supernatural. It's something more real.

Who would have though that my once weird dream of long ago of having a school on fire would actually come true? It was scary. So scary.

I woke up at around 1:45 am. Crap. I fell asleep rereading KGW. I tried to look for the page where I last got off when I heard the dorm manager announcing something. At first I was indifferent to what she was saying. Who would listen to someone paging at that time. I thought she was even sleep-talking or something. But then I heard a siren and heard the word 'fire'. Gosh. So there is something to be fussing about after all. The sirens weren't too loud for me to hear so I thought the fire was happening outside of Pisay, probably across the street. Although I tried so hard to not mind what's happening and continuue reading, I could really feel my heart beat fast. I prayed. "Please keep us all safe, and let nothing harm us." At around 2:30, I heard a good news. The fire was already in control. I felt relieved. I went back to sleep.

Early morning, I saw a message in my phone. " Nagkasunog dito sa Pisay sa SHB, hindi sure kung tuloy perio bukas." What?! I was shocked for two reasons. Yes, no classes, no tests! I haven't studied for Chem. And no! Pisay's burned! Where? How? Why?

A few minutes later, it's official. No classes.

The fire was reported to have started at the 2nd floor of the said SHB building, and some have been pointing at the Faculty Room and the Registrar's Office as the most damaged.

But how? But why?

...finally fifteen

Yhep. Another year older for me. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Happy, because, well duh. It's my birthday. I should be. I am given another year to live, and the past year was enough to be called blessed. The only shallow thing that made me sad is that I'm growing older and older, when all I want for now is to be a little kid for a long time. And include the fact that there is perio is tomorrow.

Maybe tomorrow, I could do better detailing on how this day came to be for me.

Oh, thanks for all the greetings! I love yah guys!

I still have to study for English and Chem tests.

Christmas Countdown:
It's 87 days before Christmas!
How time flies!

...whatta dream

Amy Tan's Kitchen God's Wife is haunting me in my dreams...


I was in class, and our English teacher who was Winnie Loiue showed us a painting and made us do a reflection on it. She was staring at the painting when I saw her eyes slowly filling up with tears. I realized it was the painting her father spilled tea on, and thought that her memories were going back to her. I found myself also crying, as well as my classmates who were around me.

I suddenly heard my phone beeped and knew I was dreaming. But my pillow was wet. I touched my eyes and held tears in my eyes. I knew I really cried.

*________*

There was a really cute kid in the church a while ago. He was flirting me. Hahahah. He was holding my waist and tickling me until I laughed. :)

Christmas Countdown:
It's 88 days before Christmas!
Hip! Hip! Hooray!

...saturday

Nothing's gonna stop me, not even exams.

Right after lunch, we went shopping. I bought a shirt, a vest, and a pair of sandals. Happy. And of course, I ate a lot!

Hahah.. :)

Christmas Countdown:
It's 89 days before Christmas!
So close, yet so far away.

...thank God it's friday

It's morning! And since there's no first subject class for today, I can't think of any other thing to do. I'm actually supposed to be memorizing my elocution piece. Okay lang 'yan. Isang sonnet lang naman.

So, yeah. I'm bored. Obviously.

Yehey! Tomorrow's another weekend I look forward to. Although I think we'd be doing our Health project at Cat's house tomorrow. And I still have to read The Kitchen God's Wife. Crap, I haven't finished reading it and haven't realized until now that perio's next week.

My uncle's leaving for Saudi so he's dropping by tomorrow morning. My cousins are also coming over. They're planning to mall hop by the weekend but I'm doomed to study for the exams. Why are exam days so bad timing? :)

Christmas Countdown:
It's 90 days before Christmas!
Yhey! Yhey! Yehey!

...still happy

I can't believe the Chem practical test was a breeze... I only made one minor stupid little mistake (I think). Yhey! Wala na akong problema tomorrow... :)

And we had another -- hmm, how do I say this -- interesting (?) conversation at the front lobby after class. Wala kasi masyado homeworks for tomorrow... Hahah..

Oh yeah. Most of those who did their elocutions today were good, as in really good. Now I'm being scared. I still don't know what feelings and emotions I should put in my elocution piece. Lucky thing my turn is still not tomorrow. :)

Blue won against Green. It's 62-51 according to my cousin. She's happy now. :)

Christmas Countdown:
It's 91 days before Christmas!
Have you been naughty or nice?

...bits and pieces of randomness

Since walang homework for tomorrow...

I've been watching CCS episode 66 all over and over and over again, and it never fails to make me hyperventilate. (I'm being exaggerated, don't worry.) Sorry, mababaw talaga ako. The instrumental background is so good din.

And whilei've been going crazy over that, I've also been going crazy texting Hanna and Lobitz. Nahilo na ako.

Wala lang. I'm bored.

...happy happy happy

Cut the Bio long test today and my day's so fine!

After almost a year, I finally was able to play badminton again. Yhey! My right arm hurts a bit...

We had a really fun, fun, fun conversation at the front lobby. Whatever it is, sa amin na lang 'yun... I've also realized I'm too dense but to stubborn.. Hahah.. Wala lang.

Christmas Countdown:
It's 92 days before Christmas!
I start feeling the Christmas cheer! Ding! Dong! Merrily on high! :)

...work

According to Physics, I haven't done any work since I haven't move from my place trying to study Bio since W=Fd. So basically, I haven't done anything for almost half an hour now but got tired. Stupid physics.

I feel like I'm failing Chem once more. Then there's a Bio long test tomorrow. NOooooo!!

No classes on October 1. I would've rejoiced since it's all that I had wishing for ever since -- a vacation on a weekday! But since our Perio is moved the day before, then it's more of a bad thing than good.

*Sorry for the wrong spelling and grammar, if any. My eyes are half-open. So sleepy!

Christmas Countdown:
It's 93 days before Christmas!
-Christmas is so near!

...random posts keep coming

Weeh...

Today's a-not-so-stressful day for me -- not much lessons, some classes with early dismissal, and ...

LC braided my hair. Wala lang. Ang cute kasi... :)

I'm waiting for JC to send his Indiv RRL... I'm still deciding whether or not I should study Chem today or cram studying it tomorrow... I'm such a lazy person.

Blue Eagles won against Green Archers for the first game in the finals. I'm not (!) an avid fan of the UAAP or any of the schools. I just heard my cousin talking about it last night over the phone. :)

Christmas Countdown:
It's 94 days before Christmas!
Have you started budgeting your money for gifts?

...unrequited

Unanswered. Unreciprocated. Unreturned. How does it feel when someone you really like does not like you back? (Sounds so cliché, but yeah.)

Oh Cupid! How you string your bow
With your arrows so precise!
Arrows glide across the sky
And pierces straight into one's heart.
Once again, I caught myself
Staring blankly in mid air.
Everyone was going wild,
But the commotion goes blurred in my eyes.
For through the distance
Some fifteen steps away
Did I focus my attention.
Some common being
Just so often seen,
But a handsome fine creature
In extreme.
Clamoring voices echoing loud
Passed through my distracted ears
For the only sound I hear
Were loud thumps
From somewhere near.
As I ponder through
What's going on,
I realize just one more thing --
That he was there all along
Making my heart loudly beating.
I only see him from afar,
Never spoke a word or two.
Couldn't even get near
To where he is,
I'm holding back
'Coz I guess it's just to soon.
He likes someone else --
Someone more worth of who he is.
So this feelings I have for him,
One-sided shall it remain.

Not that I'm in love or something. Wala lang. I mean, siguro ang sad ng feeling... I don't really know how it feels pero I think this is how it goes...


Christmas Countdown:
It's 95 days before Christmas!

...sh** c*a* t**!

Ang hirap ng question #22 sa Bio... It's something like "...do you think the heart is the most important organ in the body?"

>>By the way, is this an opinionated question, or are there facts that would prove if your answer is right or wrong?

Biologically speaking, I have no idea. Siguro nga pwede. I mean, without the heart, we would be dead, right? But there are other important organs like the brain. Anyway. Back to what I really meant.

Sabi ni Sir Chuckie, "the heart is not controlled by the brain, and it can live alone in special conditions." And when I was bored, I was able to formulate a corny and stupid and senseless theory. "There are times when we think we love someone or something but actually feel different about it. It's all because our heart has a mind of its own." Crap, I'm being too cheesy. And that last line just sounds like a song I heard from the radio. Hahah.. Pero, doesn't it sound right? Hahah.. Oh well.

So maybe I'm just being stressed up lately kaya ako nababaliw ng ganito. So I'm currently cramming our Physics lab report, and no one's helping me right now. All of my groupmates except Tei are not online and he said he's going to do his part tomorrow. Inaantok na rin ako, as in I can't barely open my eyes. But if I want to pass Physics, I have to stay up awake.

And maybe your wondering why I'm still writing here despite my situation. Well, siguro stress relieving na isulat ung rants mo about everything.

/*shitcraptaeshitcraptaeshitcraptae*/

So as I've said, stress relieving.

...whatta day

I should be studying for two long tests tomorrow, but still too lazy to do so.

I failed the 1st Bio LT all because I wasn't following instructions for the Test I. STUPID me.

The Chem seatwork was crazy, but thanks to Arvin's *cough*"skills"*cough*, we were able to finish the work.

Crap. Soc Sci quiz. Math long test. Fil long test. Sa umaga pa lahat. Pure crappiness. :)

...currently eating chocolate!

**becomes hyper because of chocolate*

Yhey! Our group in P.E. won for today, and each one received a bar of Hershey's from Courtney... Super saya! (Cat and I were able to run!) Hersheys! I love you Courtney! Hersheys! Chocolate!

We originally were supposed to be having three quizzes and a long test today. But luck was somehow on our side. First, we didn't have Math for today since Ma'am De Joya was absent. Next, LC, Hanna, Lobitz and I were able to convince Ma'am Bawagan to move the quiz for next meeting and instead discuss the Story of Er thingie. And we'd be having a Chem quiz tomorrow instead. Diba cool? But the Physics long test really ruined this almost happy day. I also can't believe I passed the 2nd Chem LT and the (surprise!) quiz on nomenclature.

Walang homeworks for tomorrow. Sobrang nakakapanibago. As I've just told Hanna, "...feeling ko tuloy, incomplete araw ko..." Hahah! Lol!

...my ultra super yummy popcorn

This weekend, just like any other, could be described in one word -- BORING. But at least we don't have any homeworks for Monday.

I was scanning through my pics and saw this:
Wala lang. Reminds me of the ultra yummy popcorn we bought in Disneyland. I remember paying 20 HK dollars for that -- that's 100 pesos here! But it was so yummy, as in, you can really taste the caramel goodness melting in your mouth! Lol!

Hahah.. Another one of my very useless posts.

...

nyahahah.. lol lol lol.. weeeehhhh... crazy.. hahahah... nyeheheh... bored.. woohooo...

*laughs*

I took these pictures when I have nothing else in the world to do. Wala lang. Lol lol lol...
>>random useless post

...the 6th anniversary of the fall of NYC's twin towers

** I still remember seeing how airplanes collided with those skyscrapers. It's one of those sad events that shocked not only US, but the whole world as well. This is just a small reminder of what happened six years ago.

Anyway...

I got the following personality test thing from my friend...

It's all about...
>>me! Complete the sentence.

1. Right now, I want to go...
>>have a Mediterrenean or European cruise!!

2. My fave ice cream flavor is...
>>cookies&cream, rocky road, coffee crumble, anything that's sweet!

3. The 112nd contact in my phone is...
>> joseph pork-Z

4. My bedsheet's color is...
>>pink (in a not-kikay shade)

5. I'm currently listening to...
>>far away - nickelback.. "just one chance, just one breath..."

6. Right now, I should be...
>>doing my physics hw... oh well!

7. The 11th text message in my phone's inbox is...
>>"Talaga bng l0ng test bukas sa bio?" -LC, 9/7/08

8. In my last dream...
>>I was in some really weird place and I was talking to some anime characters...

9. I'm wearing...
>>my yellow batch shirt and pink jazz-jogging pants

10. I'm currently craving for...
>>a slice of pizza, some pasta, and a banana split with three differently-flavored scoops of ice cream with chocolate bits on top.

11. For a gift, I want a/an...
>>super cute stufftoy, chocolates, or yummy food...

12. I have a crush on...
>>toya kinomoto (sakura's brother) and more anime crushes... hahah.. sorry, no real live person in my list right now...

13. At first, people think I'm...
>>quiet and matino... first impressions don't last!

14. I personally want to see...
>>the first man alive.. ooh-ooh, ahh-ahh,, ooogaaa ooh-ooh!

15. In my wallet, there's...
>>only 228 pesos left.. huhuhu...

16. I become crazy...
>>usually when it's full moon... seriously, i've proven this a lot of times now... i call it the full moon syndrome... cool, eh?

17. I usually get lazy...
>>everytime!

18. I usually get mad or pissed...
>>once in every six blue moons. hahah.. it's one of my special talents.. hahah..

19. I want to become...
>>a rich girl someday... filthy rich!

20. Aside from family and God, I love...
>>chocolates! hahah!

...little soph year memories

While Justine and I were walking back from our oral prophy, we met Juan on the way, asking our suggestions for our Camia reunion. Which reminds me, how long had it been since I've been with them?

Although second year gave a heck of a stress with our over full sched, I have to say that I enjoy those ten months more than my first year. (No offense Dia. Peace tayo!)

Thirty corny students + cool Sir Mardan = a fun and happy Thy Kingdom Camia-land.

Third year isn't at all bad. Aside from some minor glitches, 3-K is fine. It's just that, you know, there's still this feeling of longing to be with people you grew fond of. Ahh, memories. How crazy can one be?

So anyway. Yeah. I miss Camia (2010, syempre!).

**By the way, I want another sleep over. Hindi ako nakapunta dati. Kainis!

...when lightning strikes again

Hmm... It's raining once again. Why does it have to be at night? It would've been better if it's daytime. I'd simply listen to the raindrops as they drip on the roof while I get a view of my teachers opening and closing their mouths. Or see them trickle on the leaves... (emo?!?!)

I can't believe I slept a few minutes during Bio. Maybe there's just too much carbon dioxide inside the room which caused my sleepiness during that time. (Dang! Did I hear those Bio facts while sleeping?) The only time I remember myself sleeping was last year during Art 2. (Duh! Who wouldn't be? With the lights out and and the air conditioner switched, Art room was definitely a very conducive place for sleeping.) So anyway, yeah. I find myself waking up dazed while Sir Chuckie was talking about some parabronchi (?) stuff.

Need I say, someone in class really is testing my patience ability. And slowly, day by day, I'm beginning to lose a bit and piece of what holds me back from getting mad. No need to elaborate on details, they're pretty much ANNOYING to recall. All I can say is that I super hate that guy right now. I would want to shout at him but I always end up thinking that I might start a fight. Damn it!

Good thing my friends were there to share some laughter with (Aww!) Those sessions as we often 'it' are actually stress-relieving. Come to think of it, it's a good exercise for the body as well as for strategizing. Hahah!

Aagh! Still have to do some stuff but I'm getting sleepy once again.

...someone is just so clueless that i despise him

I just finished watching Cardcaptor Sakura! Hahah! Sakura and Syaoran are just so kawaii (that's cute!) to look at, although Toya defines H-O-T. *crushing on anime*

Dorm Open House was just so tiring.

I still have to cram my Chem homework. Bio long test wtf?!

Sorry, stress building up.

...in three months

”The difference between try and triumph is only just an ‘umph’.”
-Sir Chuckie

Wanting to get more some sleep, I jumped in on my bed the very moment I reached my room. I closed my eyes and tried to take a siesta, but the more I concentrate, the more my weariness comes off. So I rummaged through my drawer and found nothing but spare plastic bags, two Nestea bottles and pieces of paper with Chem, Math, and Physics equations written all over – trinkets of the past quarter.

What have I now after a quarter had passed? Academically speaking, I got a failing grade in Math4, a low, low grade in Bio2 and Chem2, an okay-grade in Physics and STR, and fair grades in the Humanities subjects. Ah, but who cares? Grades don’t comprise the entirety of my life. So really, after almost three months, what I’ve got are the following: shorter hair, bulging eye bags, piled-up homeworks, a sublimed brain, more friends, a crazier mind, a long test in Bio, homework in Chem, reflection paper for Fil, and a whole lot more of requirements coming up. Aagh! And I haven’t started yet! What a life!

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So anyway, today’s family day, but my family didn’t really show up. Aside from me not totally wanting them to go, they are busy with some stuff, and couldn’t travel four hours just to see me and my low grades. I don’t mind, really. It’s not a big deal for me.

The family day itself wasn’t that fun when compared to what had happened two years ago. In my opinion, that is. I’m not quite sure if it was because the games were held by house and not by batch (when there is a not-so-obvious but still existing competition among the batches *ehem*Batch2010*ehem*2011*ehem*). So the two batch games were more of a hit than the two house games. Batch 2010 still holds the Championship title for Pass the Hoop, but 2009 (?) won the Cramming Time. I didn’t really care who won in the other two house games. The food they served for the batch lunch in ASTB was better compared to the previous two years (although I am still frustrated I didn’t have mashed potato as side dish). Aside from the not-so-long PTA announcements and raffle promo from Kenny Roger’s, the Dikum performances were shown as part of a short program.

I’m planning to start working on my Chem, but I’m guessing I wouldn’t be able to do so. Oh well. As the famous Pisay quote says, “Everything is crammable under the heat of the sun.”

...life does not end in your books and tests

A pretty long post.

Attending the Interaksis Conference this morning was certainly something I would never regret. Corny as it may seem, but it surely changed my view on a range of certain issues going on in my mind.

Rob Roque, a Batch '07 graduate of Pisay and a current sophomore in BS Chem MSC in Ateneo, first spoke about realizing one's goals, and working through with it on the way to making it a reality. Paolo Medina who graduated last 2002 and is now on its 7th year as an IntarMed student in UP, did a sort of follow-up on what Kuya Rob had said. Kuya Lopao, as he is more fondly called, also shared his insights on being a leader.

On the second part, three (Joaq Almirante, Merlynn Baterina and Christian Esguerra) of the fourteen delegates in the recently held Immersion with the Aetas in shared their experiences and stories they had learned in their overnight stay in Sitio Target in Mabalacat, Pampanga. Aside from the interesting anecdotes they gave, we laughed our hearts out as we view some pictures and videos they had as they were adopted by families, slept in nipa huts, froze in the old night, and hiked in mountains. I tell you, some were scandalous videos of Sir Martin. Hahah!

This was followed by Joker Asis and Lance Co Ting Keh who shared their experiences as they went to Austria and Singapore respectively. The former competed in the 5th Voice Choir Competition as part of the Kilyawan Boys Choir and brought home three medals from three different categories. Meanwhile, the latter flew to the Lion City to attend a Youth Leadership Summit sponsored by a primier high school in the said country. Honestly, looking at their pictures made me feel a bit envious. (I've been yearning to go to Singapore, plus almost any European country.)

Lastly, Gaby Santos told a short story of her life and how she was inspired by Pisay to become a leader. And of course, there's Sir Martin, who both gave the opening and closing remarks. Luis Estrada hosted the event, while Mica Perlada, Ate Criselle David, and Joker Asis acted as chairpersons for each panel. Other Aksis officers like Mia Pangilinan and Franco Macaspac as well as the members were also present in the conference. And their was free food (Munchkins and juice). So it's not all about me, and never going to be about me. That's leadership, and that's what's going to lead us to reaching an end goal for the common good. And what part does Pisay play for us? Well, for one, it made us realize our strengths and weaknessess, and learn how we can work out with what resources we have.

Late in the afternoon, right after the fashion show, LC, Hanna, Roger, John-John, Lobitz, and I started talking. We started about how batch 2010 is starting to leave a legacy (woah! that's for both good and bad) then we went to how John-John experienced a hold-up twice then we talked about bloody experiences, and then some ghost stories, and then some other topic, and so on until we end up talking about the year 2012 and how the world will end and such. Which led me to think, could it be that 2012 really is the start of the end of the world? That's when reality hits me: life REALLY does not end in our school books and our long tests. An entirely different story.

*Sorry for my excessive use of 'and' as well as having wrong spellings and grammar (if ever there were any). I'm too lazy to reread this post. I also hate rereading long stuffs. :)

...you have to do something when you're bored

You just have to. Inspiration struck me as I lay awake in my bed for almost an hour so early in the morning, trying to get back to sleep. I opened my laptop, double-clicked notepad and started typing random stuff until I realized I was able to come up with a rather silly little poem.

~~
Unlabeled, I Am

I ran through the grassy hills,
Wind whiplashing gently on my cheeks
Murmuring faintly in my ears
As I rush through the verdant meadow.
And what beauty does this world
So mightily possess!
Swaying with the wind, I dance --
Dance and frolic all around
Where butter-colored dandelions
And azure forget-me-nots lay.
Ah! What splendor does this world
So wonderfully possess!
Jades and emeralds draping down
On trees spiced up with glaring jewels,
Where birds twitter and cheep
As they sing for me a melodic dance.
Oh! What glory does this world
So breathtakingly possess!
~~

So, yeah. It's VERY corny and VERY stupid. Sorry. But I have nothing else to say.

*Time check: It only 5:09am! What? I still want to sleep.

...an inevitable side of life

I don't want to comment much on our Dikum performance. In my opinion (and in everyone else's), we are in the bottom half of the rankings. But hey, we need to experience losing once in a while, it's a part of life. I remember Sir Mardan's words last year. It goes something like ...it's not the end, but it's the journey that matters the most...

To be honest, I don't feel too bad losing even if we end up as the last placers in the competition. Not unlike last year when most of us took it so seriously (that some even cried when Camia'010 landed 4th place in the Katutubong Sayaw), this one's a bit more easier to accept.

My arms are still aching from yesterday's TaeKwonDo and have been sleeping for 10-minute intervals for the past two hours. I hope this will pass out tomorrow.

EDIT 9/9/08: I was wrong! Potassium ended up as the 6th placers. Woah! Cool!

...now i feel the pain (all over the body)

I was right. It's gonna be a painful day for me today.

I do random stuffs when I get bored. Here's a proof. But I find it cute despite its 'emo-ness'.

hahah.. un lang.. Guess I'm bored as well today..


*Disclaimer: I didn't actually do the drawing. Just the editing (background and color scheme change).

...i think my right foot's almost broken

-->Again, this was supposed to be yesterday's post but this time with a different story. I slept even before 9. I guess I was really that tired.

And before anything else, I'd like to greet some people:
Belated Happy Birthday Keanu!
Happy Birthday Paul Andrew!

02.September.2008

The ACLE FORA was not what I had expected but it was pretty much okay. iKeepLoveReal. There were three speakers. I forgot their names except for Miguel Escueta who aside from talking about real love, performed one of his songs in his album.

Taekwondo was fun as our second ACLE with black belter Mike Zulueta as our instructor and brown belter Kuya Ed as coordinator. I've always wanted to learn any martial arts since I was six but never did so. Only the basics were taught, as usual. The six tenets, basic kicks, and basic drills. Then we played touchball and step-the-foot-of-your-opponent. Hahah. Sir Mike and Kuya Ed also did a sparring before we end. So cool. This day's defintely better than yesterday.

As an AKSIS member, I was also one of those in charge preparing for the KKKwiz held in the afternoon. I was also one of the proctors of one group, but it wasn't too hard a job.

Our practice was better this time as compared to yesterday. I hope we'd do good tomorrow.

The only thing I hate right now is my right foot. I can't bend it that much when I walk or climb up the stairs. And I'm guessing that my whole body will be aching by tomorrow.